Going back on the pill wasn’t part of the plan.
I had stopped it for good reasons. I wanted to reconnect with my body, regulate my cycle naturally, and stop relying on synthetic hormones.
But sometimes, life gets in the way of your intentions.
With PCOS, hormonal acne, no periods, intense mood swings, binge eating, fatigue… and a chaotic lifestyle between my internship, my training, and my wellness project; I felt completely overwhelmed.
In that moment, taking the pill again felt like the only way to restore a bit of balance.
What the pill gave me back
Yes, some symptoms got better: my skin calmed down a little, my mood stabilized, my artificial cycle came back.
But it didn’t solve everything.
At times, I feel emotionally disconnected. Like I’m not fully myself. As if there’s a filter between my body and my emotions.
What this phase taught me
Going back on the pill is not a failure.
It’s a survival choice. A pause.
A way to stabilize so I can move forward with more intention.
And this time, I want to prepare for the next stop with more softness and clarity.
What I’ll do differently next time:
- Support my body in advance: gentle detox, anti-inflammatory nutrition, nervous system regulation, targeted supplements, and medical guidance.
- Strengthen my emotional ground: stop seeking total control and instead listen to what my body is saying, without fear.
- Create space for healing: more rest, less chaos, more care.
Going back on the pill isn’t necessarily a setback.
It’s a detour. A chance to breathe.
And soon, I’ll be ready to walk forward again, without the crutch. At my pace, with kindness, and real preparation.
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